No control

Like I knew it was going to happen, I'm getting tired of it all.Lack of hope.Illusions never changed into something real.He gave me hope and again he was the one who threw me away.Is it my fault? Poate n-ar fi trebuit de la bun inceput sa ma gandesc mai mult la partile rele..

Prin starea asta extrem de aiurea nici macar nu ma pot bucura de vremea excelenta.
What scares me the most is that I can't feel love inside of me anymore. That euphoric love for everyone around me.

It looks like I'm not getting better. Stagnez all over again.And it seems like everything and everyone is fading away.What the hell is happening?!